One year Today

One year ago today April 1st was the day life changed forever. Somethings I wish I could say were better, but unfortunately it was a turn for the worse. I was arrested one year ago today for drinking and driving. As some of the optimist would say, "this is the first day of the rest of your life." Bah freaking hum-bug! It was the end of my life as I knew it. In 3 days will be the one year anniversary that Jeff left me in jail and filed for divorce. It was a time of great confusion for me and much hostility. But instead of this being a day of sadness and depression, I am spending this day with my children. Things in my life are finally beginning to come together. I am single,and trying
finding happiness with that. I must find happiness and comfort with in me. before I can be anything or any good for anyone else. I am finding me! That may sound a little selfish on my part, but you see I have not ever taken the time to discover me before. I always put the needs and wants of my love ones before me, and totally ignored what I needed. I didn't even know what my needs and wants were. I can say I know my needs now, which in the not so far past I couldn't answer that question when Jeff asked me.